am I choosing this Life?

being an intern for 3 days
not much more funny than working for Mr. J.
stomach becomes bigger as always sitting
immunity becomes worse as no fresh air
even don't know whether it rained outdoor~
is this my choice to be a White-Collar?

i pushed myself to the edge
my tutor
not shouting at me
but 100% discontented

I have to do A B C D ........
I have to .........